The Two of Swords
Earlier this year, I was presented with an opportunity to work for the art department of a production company. It was for an international reality T.V. series which was to be produced in the Caramoan Islands for a few months.
On the one hand, I saw it as an escape from the mundanity of everyday quarantine life which we've all been stuck into since March 2020. On the other, I have a fully running business with 4 workers that was entirely dependent on me for movement and progression.
This was my crossroads.
The decision merited a heavy weighing of thoughts, but I had to decide quick since the offer had an expiration. As I pondered the decision, I couldn't help but feel an overwhelming sense of guilt over the mere consideration of leaving my "responsibilities" behind: my life's work, my self-set direction, and of course; my long-time employees.
During a discussion with my seamstresses, one of them told me, "Ma'am, okay lang kami. Wag mo muna isipin ang studio, isipin mo naman ang sarili mo. Mag-enjoy ka muna. Nandito lang kami paguwi mo. Ma'am, we'll be fine. Don't think about the studio first and start thinking about you. Enjoy yourself. We'll be here when you get back."
Then it dawned on me. Would it really have been selfish of me to reroute my life, even just for a while? Or was my hesitation really rooted in fear disguised as selflessness? Everything was foreign to me. From the industry, to the location, to my potential co-workers, and most especially the work setting: corporate.
Thoughts were racing 24/7, but when the decision had to be made: I took the leap.
I won't get into too much detail on the goings-on for the show. This blogpost would end up way too long, and also there's an (imaginary) NDA that I don't want to get into more trouble for.
What I can say though, is that i've had the time of my life. I grew so much from the experience; in mind, heart, and soul. I've learned so many things, met loads of interesting people, and worked on a variety of creative outlets that i'm now able to confidently explore and express on my own... this time without a boss (or several) looming over me.
Ahhh.. the freedom of expression!
Now you might be thinking, how does this all tie into my expansion for WearPeach? Well, in late 2020, I was already considering creating pieces for home except... I didn't know how. That coupled with the fact that I was severely uninspired from being stuck at home for more than a year! When I worked for the show, I was tasked to make the props: pillows, rugs, pouches, bags, and a whole lotta flags.
Coincidence? I think not.
And so i'm back in the city, sitting in my studio, feeling as refreshed, as expressive, and as certain as ever. I'm so glad I took that leap, and i know i'll keep on taking them.
Why? Because now: I fully trust the flow of life.
Stay courageous, folks. And keep on leaping.